The Final Countdown

My due date is 6 days away. I'm still pregnant. I'm still not completely desperate to have the baby like I was when I was pregnant with Timmy, but I'm starting to get nervous at the possibility that I'll go past my due date. Psychologically, that might destroy me.

Both my brother and I were born exactly on our due dates, and Timmy came one day before his, so maybe that means it's likely this one will be born right around the 21st/22nd? I could live with that, but if I'm still pregnant next weekend I'll be deeply depressed. When my doctor mentioned yesterday that they would start monitoring me every few days if I go overdue, I wanted to cry.

Both PJO and my childcare for Timmy (my mom) are about an hour and a half away, so I'm partly just anxious about everything being covered when I need to get to the hospital. Because if my 8 hour labor last time was any indication, I won't have much time to sit around and wait for people to get here. I'm also finally getting as uncomfortable as I remember being for the last 6 weeks with Timmy. Waking up at all hours, sore and uncomfortable, heartburn, nausea, etc... So, that's where I am. Wishing I could at least know for certain that baby airplane will be here sometime before next weekend.

I have enjoyed my time off the past two weeks though, and I'm glad I had that time. Timmy's completed baby book has been ordered (I made it on Blurb). My hospital bag is packed. Our apartment is as ready as it will ever be to house two adults and two children. I caught up on some TV, movies and sleep. I snuggled with my sick boy and spent lots of time playing with him and taking him to his favorite parks. I read books by the pool and listened to audio books on walks. I have hung out with friends in my neighborhood. I've cooked. I've gotten massages from PJO while I pester him about choosing a freaking middle name already. Most importantly, I have largely ignored my blackberry.

Today I plan on going to see a movie, shopping and extending back to school night into a date night. I also want to figure out the best way to get access to lots of complete seasons of TV shows. At first, I thought of subscribing to HBO and using HBO Go, but our cable provider doesn't have that available and there are some non-HBO shows I want to see. Now I think I may re-subscribe to Netflix even though I felt like it was a waste when I had it and I'm annoyed at how much they raised their prices. Paying a la carte on iTunes would be too expensive for the amount of TV I want to watch on leave. So if anyone has suggestions on shows to watch and how to watch them, I'm all ears!

Starting tonight, we will be enjoying what will likely/hopefully be our last weekend as a family of three.