Milestone of Summer

I survived the most anticipated/dreaded weekend of the summer! We had the firm retreat from Thursday through Sunday at a desert resort for 4 days of non-stop drinking, partying and poolside lounging with all nearly-300 summers from the firm. It was so much fun to hang out and bond with all my classmates, but (as I feared) you couldn't go anywhere without being bombarded with free alcohol. This wouldn't be a problem, except for the fact that I haven't told anyone that I'm pregnant. It was especially awkward when people I go to school with working at other offices of the firm continually asked me why I wasn't drinking. All the summer associates would stay out until 3 or 4 AM at the pool, drinking and dancing... I would typically make it until 12 or 1 before coming up with some lame excuse for why I had to go to bed. Now the rest of summer will seem easy in comparison, politely refusing drinks at all the dinners and random firm events.

All of this makes me think about when I should (or will have to) tell people; I think I will be 18.5 weeks on my last day of work.* I know everyone starts showing at different times, and I'm tall, so I'm kind of hoping it will be somewhat hide able until I am done so I don't have to deal with it at all. Obviously, if I start showing earlier, I'll need to address it. I'm not really nervous that it would affect the extension of an offer or anything, I just don't want to deal with the extra attention or questions. I guess I will just have to see how it goes and then decide what to do. I also haven't figured out when to tell friends or family.

Speaking of showing, I definitely notice my whole torso becoming thicker. It looks bigger from the side and there is a lot less definition... but from the front it still looks normal and I don't think it's noticeable under clothes. It's weird to think that it could change drastically in so little time. All the things I have read say that women are usually anxious to start showing... but I feel like I'm desperately clinging to my old body and really could wait a long time for it to change. Other than that, I would never know I am pregnant. I don't really have any morning sickness, and while I still feel tired all the time, I just blame it on work taking up 14 hours of every day.


The reason I think, and don't know, that I will be 18.5 weeks is because I still haven't seen a doctor since finding out I was pregnant. My doctor was on vacation between 6 and 10 weeks, so I made an appt for the beginning of my 10th week. Of course, someone at the front desk messed up, didn't tell me she was scheduled for surgery and didn't let me know until I showed up. There were no free appointments at any point for the next 4 weeks that I could make because of my work schedule, so my first appointment will be at 12 weeks with some other doctor ... then 4 weeks later, I can finally see my doctor for the next appointment. Frustrating.